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rabbit on the moon
10 April 2020 @ 10:33 pm

Hey guys, I've decided to make this page private. I say a lot of personal stuff here and I don't feel comfortable having a public LJ.
rabbit on the moon
08 July 2013 @ 11:33 am
Naming my LiveJournal "Happiness is Temporary" turned out to be pretty accurate for me. I was told it will take at least a month for the St. John's Wort to start working. I'm not sure how much of this I can take. A lot of unpleasant memories from my childhood are back again and stronger than ever. It's like a bunch of movies playing in my head over and over. The bullying, the lack of concern from adults, the insecurities, and the loneliness.

This may sound odd, but my way of combating these latest negative emotions was by turning on porn. I was unsure whether or not I wanted to talk about that here. But this place is dead. Nobody is reading. Besides, I have no reason to be ashamed. Back to the story, I turned on porn when I felt myself getting upset. I didn't watch it though. I just had it playing while I checked my email and updated my Tumblr. Going all the way back to when I was 12, that's when my fascination with pornography began. Porn for me represented the fantasy of liberation and empowerment. Being a closeted kid, those 2 things are what I wanted. The freedom to be myself and the strength to accept who I am as a person. I never really felt like I got that. In many ways, I still feel that way. And now after 14 years, I continue to use porn as a comfort.

I think that's enough sharing for today.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: The Porn Song-Sarah Silverman
rabbit on the moon
31 December 2008 @ 11:00 am
WARNING- This is probably the meanest LJ entry I’ve ever written. For anyone who doesn’t know me, I can be the nicest person you’ll ever meet. But if you come after me, I cannot be expected to turn the other cheek.

A couple of months ago, I posted entries about the false tracing accusation on Y! Gallery and that rude moderator, pirateseneschal (or my nickname for her, Pirate Bitch). Go read up on it if you don’t know what I’m talking about. Anyway, it irked me that I was unable to do anything about Pirate Bitch and her rude remarks towards me. All of this anger has been building up for weeks. But that all changed a couple of days ago. Don’t ask me how I did it, but I have obtained some photos of her.

Just like the subject says, "Damn! This bitch is ugly." Where do I begin. Let’s start with those yellow ass teeth that look like corn on the cob. That Miley Cyrus meets G.I. Joe dress, which is tacky as hell. And wow! This bitch is flatter than a teenage boy. Not one tit in sight. Goodness. When I think about how I let this creature upset me for weeks and affect my self esteem as an artist, I just have to laugh. I’m not writing all of this to be cruel. Well, maybe just a little bit. But the real reason behind this post is to help me move on. A new year is coming tomorrow and it’s time I looked toward the future and forget about this tracing mess. In the end, people will believe what they want to. But I know who I am. And so do the people who care about me. That’s all that matters.
Current Mood: deviousdevious
Current Music: Diva-Beyoncé